For You My Love.

Weary beyond explanation

Truly tired of placing those Expectations

Longing to soar in the colours of our dreams

Just letting love exist, instead of holding it down

I treated you as though you left me

Though you always stayed right here

I treated you as though you'd changed 

Yet you always remained the same

I treated you in what I thought to be truth

Yet before my eyes your true heart stood

I treated you in disbelief of what you'd spoken to me

And saw your eyes as you took it in,

Which is something I never want to see

I spoke to you with piercing words

And you decided to stay

You continue to amaze me

You have captured my heart

This I know will never change

In those seasons

Where the storms seem to stay 

I know that we can make this

And fight, for it's only rain

"Ash beneath,

Rain above

Such pretty rain

Through all old pain"

So now I run into this change

Into this season ahead

With no expectations, 

Only love

I know you and trust you my love

You're here to stay

Run along, Darling

Don't look back

For truth is to behold

Run along in this love

Fear not, fear nothing

Simply trust

For I am weary of holding onto nothing

You never turned away

You never changed

You never looked away from this dream

The very thing I long for I fear the most

Yet I know in my weakness He is made strong

Words

Words

Words

Please, no more

No longer mere speaking

I'm tired of no action

For what I long to say

Is much deeper than words

- I wrote this in regards to my lack of trust and my fatalistic mindset. I always believed the worst would come. In my relationship with Ted, he kept showing me he is here to stay, yet I believed it was too good to be true. I have grown a lot since then.